Patience is what I learned to be where I am today

Assalamualaikum.

How time flies. Yes I think every time I try to revisit this lil spot of mine, I realized we live day in day out without realizing there's so much we should or we could do to achieve a fulfilling and contented feeling. I have always been keeping myself busy. Climbing higher in career and pushing myself as long I have the hunger for knowledge and challenges, connecting with family and friends, buying stuff (which I try to keep it at minimum cos I tend to have withdrawal later on and end up buying more at one go!!!!) and involves in social activities.

When my job is more secured I will try to get myself into some charity works as I feel I need to give back to the society who need our support and care :)

These past few months along the way there are good and bad things cropping up. I had kinda tough Ramadhan this year as at work place people are just too insecure and selfish that they tried to kick me out.. Just like the other 4 team members who opted to leave than stay and face the music. It was bad but deep down I am a fighter when I know I am being treated unfairly. I fight cos I have given in and put my effort to make things right. I turned to Almighty for courage, confidence and guidance. Yes, we shall seek for his Mercy not only in time in need... He should always be around us in good and down time... Insya allah.

In this process I also realized my gut instincts are usually a spot on. Again a girl who cannot share and embrace others happiness turn to betray my sincerity. I thought I have moved on and selecting few who can be happy around me but I was wrong :( 

I should realized that confidence are not instilled in everyone naturally. Mental strength is acquired by sincerity. It doesn't mean you speak the same language, read same book, share the same coffee the other is not judging you silently. Hmmm.. seriously, you can actually judge a person look, the crowd that they hangs out with and the things they do to kill their time. I have summarised all these in profiling people. Yup, I just love to observe and I should remember to take a step back not be taken advantage again. Insya allah. 

Also sooner or later you will connect with the right people that you share the same character even though it might be in different levels but yeah.. He will clear the way for you :) they say birds of same feather flocks together so that is how the universe do their magic for us here...

Another sour apple who was the caused of my fall out with another friend I heard came back and got separated with her husband. Perhaps that's why she was too frustrated to see me going out and about with her gf and play her dirty tricks on me. I am no replacing anyone and I have a lot of friends that know I am the outgoing person who is so OK with impromptu plans. I forgive cos I don't play childish game and get stuck there... the worst part is out of the blue, her ex send me mssgs and I tell you it is not a hi-bye, flowery one. Ugh!

I think he must be losing his mind or there's too much revenge and vendetta that he needs to give a big pay back to her. Do you think I would interfere? No way am minding with people issues but deep down I know God is testing me to see what would I do with these chances. I rest my case and blocked that idiot like how I did to his ex and the rest... *puke*

An ol friend who called me Zoe (the only gal whom I allows - btw it was my cheerleader nick) passed on the same date as Dy-O left us. Innalillah... Alfatihah. She was young and lead a rather interesting life, battling cancer and fight thru the end... Our path always crosses uniquely but I am glad I managed to ask for forgiveness and told her to be redha and accept our fate. She cried incessantly and my heart breaks. May her soul rest in peace along with my Dy-O, atoks, families and friends too. We will all be we there are now one day.

I can't wait for November and December. It will be a great achievement for my life journey in 2013 *grins*

I shall share bits and pieces of what I am excited about hehehe

Take care and bisous.

xoxo

votre stupide être est ennuyeux

Being gals, ladies, female, la femme we tend to have unexplainable characters

The opposite gender will never understood us cos we ourselves cannot comprehend each other

This one particular friend she is harmless (if she's reading this I hope she understand my opinion)

Harmless in away she don't really abused you (we all do take advantage each other to an acceptable level don't we?)

You see am a carefree easy going approachable and friendly person. It is just my nature.

I am blessed and surrounded with great people around me to a certain extent that I learned my lesson not to be too nice to people

I am very accommodating but please don't take my sincerity and over rides it

The problem with Ms.X is she's trying to be friends with all my friends that I hang out with i.e. instantly add them up on fb even it was a brief chat and connect immediately from there

I don't mind sharing friends I don't mind if you get along well

But perhaps my understanding of juicy friendship 101 I learned to respect it by not conquering a friend that I know of from a friend

With easy means to connect with any tom dick harry these days via social networking, bbm, whatsapp etc; people are so freaking easy to communicate

Just click add or scan barcode to get connected

I am more selective these days to connect with anyone new therefore I only give out my bbpin to those whom I think deserves it :)

Back to my story Ms.X the reason that I always shut down with her was becos she tends to make plans with my friends that she just met once or twice. Perhaps those friends are interesting people therefore she need to have constant connection with them. Sometimes we are trying hard to accommodate our time to catch up but somehow out of sudden you are tagging along with their plan! Errr.. excusez-moi?!

It's not a big deal but if you were in my shoe I guess you would understood

You don't suddenly met a person and claimed that instantly and doesn't mean that when the person is nice to you obligating and you think they are totally OK with you

My other friends are quite upset and indirectly becos of you as a friend of mine conquering our own friend with your plans and my other friends feel that you are not a very nice person to be friend with!

Your action also embarrass me in away that you perhaps don't understand ever cos you keep repeating it

One best word to remind you is : CALM DOWN and CHILL don't conquer!

Another experience I wanna share is friends who got married and becoming housewives

I noticed those that got married somehow could not get along later w the single ones cos I think they "think" they are better than you?

Hmmm...

I try to keep my friendship w them but if it's ME who always accommodating to their choice of place or I have to pick them up or I have to buy them food or I have to be their ears w their domestic problems ALL THE TIME I think I can't handle that

Doesn't mean we are single we don't have problems; we don't have work issues; we have more energy?!

Some decides to end the friendship by giving the silent treatment or just deleted you completely

I think am nice.. as always too nice! So if I can't give as their expectation they think it's a CRIME!

Oh dear please.. so much things I gotta handle yet am still giving my best to please everyone

Just too bad and sad you don't value the effort or even see the sacrifice I did to (some) of you!

People change according to time and I don't regret it :)

It's your prerogative and you can just keep on stalking me via this humble blog, twitter or fb ;)

I have nothing to hide and like they always say the ocean is not as smooth always... If you've stronger bond or even try to understand and compromise with each other what you did will never happened between us!

Have a good life!

Life is beautiful for me to sulk.....

stalker dans amis. effrayant!

Time Warp or Speed Zone

Yeah... am just stuck somewhere or just wheezing in a buzz!
Lemme see... I've drafted post(s) that gone half way haha
It's a madness thingy going on around.. a lil paranoid or shall say more careful in the choice of me leading my journey
Not gonna get any outside vibes interfere with it
Cos somehow you didn't realize it did and perhaps when you're vulnerable these unwanted sources seep in your skin
So yup! Change of course, of course!

Since I was back from holidaying in Bali, I had gone to Perhentian Island with Ms Chatterbox (just the two of us!)
She's one of my travel buddy cos we stick together no matter what... unlike urm.. my trip earlier to Langkawi Island where I got ditched for some random strangers.. Not funny!
(Unexpected) things does happened innit but am always in good hands (thank god)
Of cos made new friends which is awesome (collect + select method of cos)
But Perhentian trip was a diff kind cos traveling with no guys can be tricky (extra careful needed)
Stayed in a simple shack with fan and mozzie net hehe (first time!) Konon adventure lah...
The island is spoils by drugs consumed openly at nite (WTF!) segan la sikit! I was shocked and damn pissed
Do your shit in your freaking room please...
Our room got peeped on the last nite by some idiot Tom (highest suspect is the chalet supervisor)
This is in Panorama Chalet so so sad and freaked out that we took the second boat off the island
Rather pay extra and stay in Bubu Resort instead like my previous trips *sighs*

Nevertheless some juicy experience from the island trip was I got a pretty nice tan hehe cos spending a lot of time in the water under the sun, saw 2 turtles kissing (how rare and wish I got underwater camera then) also baby shark right beneath me while snorkeling
Made awesome friends from UK Becks, Cameron, Lucy + her tiny bumps
I still luv the clear water and enjoying it all the time there *blessed*
Also made another friend when we took the cab ride from jetty to airport Hedy who runs a backpackers/hostel in KL
We savored the supposedly best nasi kerabu ayam percik restaurant in Kota Bharu called Yatie
We shared our travel experience and had a good laugh (oh this reminds me to drop by at her hostel and say hello!)

Roped in to join a group of adrenalin junkie for white water rafting in KKB
Gosh I was super excited that I couldn't sleep the nite before haha
Thrilling and gosh definitely giving it another shot next time
My arms hurt like a bitch and bruises everywhere haha
Polished off with steamy hot nasi lemak with awesome sambal after oh my what a day it was!
Unicorn was asking about shrooms if any of the orang asli plucked em off hahahaha
Amir of Hanz friend and our guide Rizal tempted the both of us to go travel with them doing crazy stuff like rafting and bungee jumping backpacking in Kathmandu in April!
I was kinda tempted but then mom would think I have mid life crisis or going insane if I were to tell her am off to Nepal mommy for soul searching hahahahahahah
I would go but have a lot in line so hmmmm... maybe... just maybe...
Later the UK peeps came to town and we meet up in Sky Bar, Trader's Hotel
So happy to see them and we had some cocktails and white snapping picchas
Met two of Beck's friends one from her hometown Leanderr and aussie Carla
Happy vibes it was!
They came over the next day to my place and took them out to Curve for lunch after fetching them from lrt station
We swam in the pool and getting to know more
Too bad couldn't join them in Palate Palatte later at nite cos I had to go for Marcel + Dayang showcase in HRC with boss and colleagues
I prefer the former anytime baby!

I made contact again with unicorn giving it an evaluation
Got me a LCD screen tv and wii full set with his first pay for his new job (improvement!)
But I ain't gonna be tat easy cos frankly I can managed myself but in comparison we shall see if chances can be given lah
He got a yellow sweepea soft top (I did wish to own tat years ago) we collected from JB
Good condition but was leaking cos the top was soaking wet from really stormy rain on the way back
Simply fun and no pressure so yeah I felt comfortable

And then I was off to Singapore last weekend with Rapunzel meeting Carla the Koala
Celebrated both birthdays and was in casino too! of cos no gambling rather shopping la since the rate is freaaaaaking expensive!
Crazy fun weekend too and seriously am so so blessed with the madness impromptu goings on lately he he
Tat summarized my crazy moments now and yeah lotsa juicy picchas to share too!
If am not stuck in the time warp again or in the speeding zone I shall upload it la la la la

Be right back!
xoxo

p/s: am freaking fat now officially! fark been 4.5 kgs heavier sheeesh!!! WTF!! DIET TIME!

Stay Away!

Seriously, I would never expect you to be so irresponsible and selfish to the max with your (I thought) level headed facade
But then again people have issues but not anything that can't be solved or counter in a better way
My rule of thumb never take advantage of a girlfriend cos she will be there for you no matter what!
For you ditching me so many times with random strangers is so not cool
Sorry is fine but repeatedly it means nothing la!
For god sake we are no longer in our teens and random sex isn't so much liberating yo!
I lost my respect and try to earn it again if you ever wakes up!
Buat malu je!
Sheesh... The best part was when you borrowed my stuff and left it at the stranger house WTF!
Have some dignity what ever it is there's always another way to counter your issues
We all been there and I can even guide you lah! Free of charge! But not for missing my precious stuff!

CD print shoot : ex wife hook up : comedy club

My head was a bit heavy from late nites earlier and I managed to find Tmn Desa by my own for the shoot
Yup.. am my own juicy GPS yo! ~_~
I love the make up from this cute chinkie guy, Max of CD as it was natural and enhanced my small eyes, making me looking alive!
The photog somehow recognized me and I said ya good ol days back in NST
It was fast after the hair was done and snap snap snap!
Walla am ready for their issue ~_~

Then I buzz tis gal tat I know of thru mutual friend after the shoot
Catching up for lunch or something in BSC
She mentioned she wanted me to meet someone as in getting to know each other bla bla bla
Seriously I'm not into tat kinda stuff (cos am too proud haha)
This someone ex-wife turns up and secretly I was laughing hard to myself
What a small small world and hello! I don't need to be anymore famous wei hahaha
Cannot handle my current fan base pun!
But being nice (as always) and a sport I layan je laa..
She is pretty but it is pretty weird on what she's trying to do hmmm..
At that point I was telling myself regardless your age or your race or your status even if you have 5 kids the sense of maturity is hard to measure until they try to speak out..
Told ya life is funny and I am amazed at how people connects and the separation is seriously could be just a degree

My day didn't end just there I kidnapped another friend to catch and support a new friend let's call him Mr Loud comedy show
Yeah it's a stand up and it was quite interesting
Those comedians really have guts to be on stage and trying to make people laughs
I think it is a tough job!
So at one point I was really tired cos we couldn't get a place to sit.. it was packed
To divert the coldness and grumpiness I had bullied this guy who seems to be full of himself (and partly drunk)
We were debating on craps and somehow he lost it to me kekekeke
Jahat kan!
He ends up making a quiet exit and yeah gone for the nite
Hoo hoo am such a real prat and it does feel good to bash up male chauvinist oink!
Give it to me boy! LOL!

No Longer Jungle Gal

Last Saturday managed to catch up wif Sazwa at her family's house where her minime Qirana Atiya had her aqiqah and turn 6 months
Such adorable lil one with big cute eyes and rosy cheeks
All the aunties and uncles (that's us) were busy stuffing ourselves with the lovely food and had bowls and bowls of ais kacang yg dibuat sendiri woohoo!
Too much choice of desserts and it was heaven
After the gathering my head were really wuzzies from all the babies and lil kids running around in the house haha! OD-ed with their sounds yo!
I love kids anyway -_________-
Bambam was blushing when we talked about engagement, weddings etc at the cafe
Make a mental note must ask for MORE mas kahwin ahahahahhaha for ME!

Up close personal with ze astronaut
Sunday I forgot I have invites to watch AJL 2009 (Juara Lagu) in Bukit Jalil Stadium
Say what????! But it was a red carpet invite so kira tak payah beratur and berebut-rebut la
Before we went in the afternoon we had lunch in my fav banana leaf place mana lagi Nirwana, Bangsar
Saw ze sex addict monkey with a mat saleh right across our table haha of all the people
Dunno which client laaa.. god knows....
Later I cut queue (not purposely cos the shop owner called me) at the threading salon and she complimented my simple polka dress haha
So happy cos I'm rushing time anyway and sorry to those waited hehe not my fault and I'll make sure I wear another polkas next visit hehe
The boys pampered themselves for foot reflexology while I trimmed my locks @Shawn Cutler
I love the saloon cos both my shampoo boy Kenzo and stylist Jackham treated me good without pressuring me at all
You know where they like to ask you to use this and that product and didn't listen when you repeatedly reminded them just trim it and don't LAYER it too much
For a moment (my usual weakness) I always itch to cut it short or restyle everytime I stepped into a saloon but heck I should be patient enough to keep it really long this time *winks*
I was a satisfied customer and I shall return there again

Ok back to AJL my god there were thousands (ok I maybe exaggerating) people queing for the show but with our VIP invite (ceh...) we walked on the red carpet yo! Kekekee
Nothing much to brag about but when I saw our astronaut walking pass by our seats I jumped and knowing LindaMelon adores him so much I grabber her arm and said let's go say hello! LOL!
I did and introduced myself to him and shook hand
You know what he said back... "I've met you before didn't I?" Like DOH!!!!! When???? In my dream??? Maybe.. *blush*
Despite the rumours and all but he does look dashing in that black suit la and I purposely lay my hand on his tush (not bad) while ShamFendi snapped our piccha woohoo!
His gf or partner definitely not amused but that's the price you pay for going with public figure innit
I know am a notty juicy gal but I don't steal and keep... *winks*
The show was above from my expectation gila first time I heard all those songs and really enjoyed it
Faizal Tahir did an awesome performance but too bad he didn't win overall la
My aunty sms me saying he was delicious and sent text back and forth after she saw me walking outside before the show started hahaa
Damn I have a cool aunty and I guess notty runs in juicy family boohoohoo
Shaaaaaaaaaaaaam.... upload the picchas pretty please!
Thank you for a great nite and making my weekend an awesome one
I heart the mouse pad!!! Yay!

At the rate am going now...

I should be paid a consultancy fee!!!
Please bear wif the cussing in this post cos that bloody hippie man being a real pain in the ass
Working and staying in this country can actually manipulate a foreigner being the same lame attitude like the majority
They squeeze they give no respect they being sneaky!
When I know somebody I would give my utmost respect in adapting and accommodating to their character, behaviour and sometimes their mood
But one can take as much isn't it?!
The problem wif me is am always being bloody too nice, give face always laugh it off oh it's okay it's just them
I shouldn't be too emo shouldn't take it personal
Yes my weakness is let me tell you loud and clear and transparent of feeling for that person first instead of MINE!
MINE!!!! I should think of myself first! ME! ME! ME!
But nooooooooooo... repeatedly another person comes first
Memang pantang if I sensed that person is super sneaky
Like WTF lah kan just be straight forward la babi!
Don't have to pressure me and then point the fingers to me subtlety at the end of the day
I can smell it la you doink!
Yes, I don't think I can take your bullshit crap anymore mofo cos you don't run my freaking life
I'm a fast learner and I give well not 100% but at least 95.5% lah cos am not perfect!
These type of people I would say they have inferiority complex
When they know you can lead a better life than them oooh they cannot cope wif that!
Make that person life miserable too!
Thank god for some positive vibes that I can rely on lately seriously it means sooooo much to me
Giving me the support and courage of what to do and things to be done for MYSELF!
Yes I gotta start thinking of sorting myself out for a better healthy life!
I may want all that sparkle bling bling in this life but hey MOFO it can be found somewhere else too you scumbag!
BAH!
Buying a penthouse decorated like shit wif kamdar curtains (oh wait kamdar has better choice now) doesn't impress me at all!
You can work on your bloody hammock yourself and just die there!
God please give me strength to brave through these challenges but am tired...
Seriously tired >.<
It ain't my game anymore...

crazydoglady eid mubarak

Is it me or time wheezing just like tat...
Next week raya ok! *phew*
Wonder if my lace is ready from the new tailor *ponders*
I didn't manage to go for terawih also this year still not too late will ask my juicy babe when she's going

This fasting month lotsa catching up wif friends weeeeee....
Somehow it's more meaningful *wide smiles*
But tak sangka in this blessed month got also some anasir-anasir which are quite abominable to entertain
Bleurgh!
You can't take the drama from the king or queen even in the holy month yo! LOL!
Fret not no blood splatters!
My deepest sympathy cos as much as I try to colour their dull life (am sure secretly they agree) still can be so ungrateful and being hateful pulak later on
It's all about the colours baby not just black and white doh!
Sincerity is missing from the heart that's why lah they act weird like tat
Wonder why the connection in the first place >.< Hantu PHD (perasaan hasad dengki) tak sempat nak diikat di bulan mulia ini
I think so *raised eyebrow*
Whatever... *do the W signs like JC*
I wouldn't wanna be in the TinKosongChampionship as MsCB puts it either lah

Nobody has to like me in the first place so just go away please!

So apart from the anasir-anasir well the whole month am glad not much money wasted on extra food
Ye lah fasting month your appetite grows bigger especially walking around the pasar ramadhan
I craved and eat a lot for nasi kerabu but none actually has the oomph!
Oh! Oh! Which reminds me that tomorrow I should get the moist layered choc cake which I didn't eat cos accidentally left at bambam's house so orang lain sapu the other day *cry*
Like everyone complaints that we don't actually lose weight in this fasting month I think I got the same issue too
Not that I eat a lot also but how come?

But among all my mom's ikan terubuk bakar is still da bomb!
They say nothing beats mom's cooking ey *smiles*