Health & Fitness Journey

After I left corporate world, I felt a sudden need to recheck myself and realigned my thoughts to a more focus in self improvement and inner peace.

I do miss being in a team challenging ideas and plotting out strategies.. but looking back I was sucked in to a deep negative hole fighting with demons masked in human form in suits just to be on top...NAH! Thanks for the lessons and all the perks.. I wanna be me again and I don't need to be the greatest actress to fit in!

So, I slowly maneuvered myself to exercise more as I've tortured my body i.e. eating unhealthily, smoke a lot, binging outings, late nights to escape from work stress. I lost my metabolism as I've now aged passing the mid thirties crossing to forty for goodness sake! When I made up my decisions, it's usually when I'm listening to my body... and I can hear it screams Oi! Wake up and give more love to me! ME! Your body that is a vessel to your soul!

Yeah.. once I left the company well I was lucky to negotiated my departure with my top boss, my CEO whom was offering me to stay and instead I took up the compensation as I needed the break. My GM was an ass.. seriously and I don't bother to have any farewell cos their drama is beyond I can comprehend. My body rejected to be in their presence too as it was up to vomit blood some may say! Their time will come around to the corporate leeches and monkeys...

After our maiden trip to America... New York is the best city in the world! I'll blog about this I promise... I psyched myself into following videos on simple exercise routine. Trying to squeeze few simple work out. Then, I started for group work out as I need some social interaction. I signed up with FIRE and enjoyed the kick boxing classes. I like the vibes there too. People are pushing it at their own pace and motivatig each other.

Now I am more conscious in my eating habits, more fruits and oats... veggies too less carb. I was doing well until I had a collagen drinks which spike up my weight as hell! All those work out shedding weights toss in the god damn drain.. but at least I'm telling myself I gained my stamina back and I learned!!!! Beware of your poison!

Here are some photos of fire yoga and #pinktober ride yoga classes I had joined last month

I might hit the pool now. Happy weekend!
Xx

Life is a cycle. Live + Love right.

Last year October marked a deep scar when I lost dearest Ayah, Dy-O :(
I have to redha and insya Allah he is resting in peace dikalangan orang beriman, Amin
It could be a different scenario if I put my family first than work but I did what I had to do and it could be more devastating for me if I was by arwah's side
What am trying to say here I put WORK first!
WRONG Nurul, it may bring the dough home but it means nothing if it affects your harmony be it self and family...
I learned to put aside whatever unfortunate things come around me and moves on
You see, in my life I kinda sacrificed and give the best to people matters to me
In the end sadly it never gets appreciated
Mostly relationship turned sour without me realizing it cos I've always been giving, giving and giving
I have no regret and did my part but for me to tell myself what did I do that they turned their back when I need their support when am not in good shape?
Like they say you can only count good friends with one hand. True.
It's hard to swallow but I've become numb with these people..
Perhaps I was only the positive generator they need and when they expect more I seriously give up!
You can never understand one's behavior cos it can changed anytime! In time!
Those who ignored and willingly deleted themselves from my life I thank god u did that
Those I gave silent treatment and they expect me to still buzz them when they know I wasn't in a perfect shape myself I feel I don't need to please you but myself...
You may lay low too but I've feeling that you still want me in your radar but prefer to just STALK and put a gap as stranger. Hmph...

I remember I told few gfs we will be in deep shit once we declared as best friends... Bff or besties things like tat
Since school days I don't believe in it cos it backfires me in the end
The understanding of best friends rules only takes one side.. ME!
Expectation is high and effort only from ME!
Oh well I prefer to have more close friends than revealing everything to one person
We never know ones intentions later on kan..

Friendship aside even at.... I have been taken for granted
She may have everything in the world but manners and gratitude are none
I knew how she treated those who go against her but with what ever I have extended to make her wish came true was flicked in the drain like a piece of dirt
I jeopardized my relationship, friendship and family for her. In the name of w... Part of my j....
The almighty only open up my eyes recently. I guess I can take as much innit
For someone in forties blessed with 3 beautiful and smart kids this ol brat listens to her gold digging partner and treated me like s***
She didn't realized this person who she treated like s*** is protecting her.. why? Cos the jealousy is there from the very beginning
Not in terms or material but inner self value
I shakes my head and felt pity cos as much as I did to show her the goodness side in life, I can never take the black energy of negativity instilled in her and she let herself surrounded w the same just like her..
Birds of the same feathers flock together
And I don't wanna be part of that
I don't wish anything bad but I always pray that when ever a person hurts me... Let them feel what I've to go thru.
She can sleep on mountains of money but she can never seek that pure sincerity when she keeps on throwing, using, buying love and attention w money
Perhaps when he decides to marry another eloping the same like he did w you, the love is still there for you to hold on
To those idiots kacang lupakan kulit that I have kutip to be in the corporate world may you learn something useful
Back stabbing doesn't take you far and you deserves to be under one fat shelter

Myself and my mommy has been repeatedly tested by almighty.. We take it w pride and hang on to each other and know something better will come along for us!
Our lives may not be lavish but we had great times together as a family and truly blessed w his plans written in our lives :)
Protect us ya Allah and alfatihah to Dy-o. Amin.

la vie est dure pour moi, mais je vais le faire à travers!

Bonjour from Level 19th

I'm not from my new crib (yet!) but from my new work station at the tower

Love the office here but it's like a giant freezer everyday

I somehow managed to escape myself from the storm madness

After all the effort and beyond measures I've put up this person I realized it will never change

Lack of sensitivity and even an ounce of care is shown I backed out

There are more bigger picture in life than slaving for work

Sometimes I sit down and think that I'm lucky in other way yet can be quite unlucky at work as most of them get intimidated for the wrong reasons *sighs*

But WHY????! or there's a big "PUNCHING BAG" sign on my forehead that allows them to react such way

Am in the wrong choice of line I guess....

Oh well, perhaps one day when I do something on my own for living this thing will just be a tiny piece of history of my life

Where ever I go, with no intention of stepping anyone toes or shine a lil brighter than em it tends to back fire my positivity! What the hey.. Be sincere and positive it will shine thru your spirits subconsciously *wide grins*

I hope the Almighty will protects me and my family always and spare us all from ugly vibes... Amin.

B.U.R.N.T O.U.T! Yeah am taking a break from absorbing mdm storm madness! She can go fly kite at this time!

Shut Down Mode

I miss the badminton today due to cramps
Supposed to hang out with the gals later for dinner but instead fell asleep infront of the telly
So tired... and I just feel the need to hibernate on my own
Don't have to answer calls if I don't feel like it
Need not replying sms or bbm or emails (of cos work related kena la) to anyone
I realized I missed how it feels to be so happy and contented and the need to share my love with
Yeah with someone who will loves me unconditionally....
Wondering why in the end my act of kindness always been tainted, broken and thrashed
That's the reason I never settled for less cos I know the one for me is somewhere there or might just not exists
Gotta focus on my plan and as always am usually side tracking
I have seen the sign so yeah you're not good enough for me
I need a pillar and not being a pillar for you... I've done enough

On Full Speed

Today both of my staff were not in and luckily Mdm Storm mood is A-Ok
A lot of work though and both of my mobile phones kept on ringing, chiming and making other sounds
At one point I was holding it with both hands and putting it down on my desk as if it was two revolvers ahaha!
Sorry my imagination runs wild all the time *tongues out*
Ok if it was it will look like this.....

hahahahahahhaha

Today I shall let my body rest from any form of work out la
Tortured for 3 days in a row so yeah gonna chill and relax my mind
I kinda like it when natural sweats produce during the jog or badminton I did cos I felt like I flushed out all the toxins from myself
I need to CLEAR MY MIND!
Need no baggage at the moment and very SELECTIVE now
Yup, call me selfish but I only hangs out with POSITIVE people
I don't need to drown with your problems/issues as everyone has and it is how you DEAL with it
Thanks!

Healthy life for a healthy start!

My body is a lil aching from exercising and rotating activities to keep fit
Went for run/brisk walking at the park on Saturday and swimming on Sunday
We were crazy (and noisy) in the pool when we jumped in after the rain cos we were busy learning the V thingy
Haha wonder wat was it?
Sort of hand stand with your both legs lift up and spread wide open (mine was too much I looked like a damn clown)
And today after a short jog at the park I played badminton for 2 hours
My oh my I'm amazed I have the endurance but sure konk later he he

Got a lil concerned on my first purchase... can't wait for my car loan to be settled!
Chatted with bro about it and he seems to be firm with his decision
Good for him! I gotta sit down and discuss further with everyone *sighs*
Somehow it gives me the cold feet haha but yeah it's about time Nurul!

The assistant took off to Jakarta to celebrate someone's birthday
I said ok as not much help needed and for sure the same favour can be asked later when I really need it ;)

On another note.....
He thinks I have forgiven yes I do but I don't forget...
Oh come on... I didn't paused my life just for you please...
I was okay and definitely better now so beat it!
Changes is what I was hoping for but looking at the rate now.. hmph!
God bless!

Yasmin Ahmad - May you rest in peace

Just as we bid the demise of our King of Pop recently now our dear talented individual Yasmin A left us earlier
All of her work were so touching and has it's own special symbolic message
Not cliche and emphasizing on what is REAL!
Her last post was 3 days ago in her *blog*
Al-fatihah and semoga roh-nya dicucuri rahmat.... Amin!

There's a lot of deaths this year...
I have lost count be it acquaintance, relatives, colleagues and legend
Also the death of my longest relationship *sighs*
Seriously life is really short... I've been telling myself and close ones that there's nothing right or wrong that we should question on our action
We have to create our own happiness and giving our best to make life more meaningful
Come what may!
Easier said than done cos feelings are not an easy thing to handle innit
I just wish that god surrounds me with good souls so that I can stay afloat and survive
Hmmmm...
Yeah I need to gather back my guts and speak out my mind!!!!!
Bring back the ol juicy me yo!
*sniffs*

Life is really freaky that you just cannot comprehend what lies ahead for you!

It is really funny how the universe works!
Lately things happened in my life are kinda hard to digest
Especially those you meet and how it links to one and another and the best part is when you found out that your past is haunting you... yet again!
*sighs*
It is all god's will and as I believe he just know how to test those who has faith in him
To be more aware and realize that you can never run from those things you hope to chuck away and buried deeper far from your life.... hmmm...
Seriously I never regretted anything that I hope for to have a happy ending
I just have to accept that it was a journey for me to be a better person
Despite am slow in accepting it or learn from past I'm always trying to be positive and strive to survive
Life is really short and I guess I haven't fulfill some of my dreams yet
Cos I was always busy entertaining and pleasing others apart from my own self *slaps head* waaaaaakeee upppppp!
Oh and am tired of planning things... As for now am just letting my juicy boat float away and see where it brings me
Actually I never plan things.. I just wish it in my heart and somehow he does answered my prayers!
Yup.. careful what you wish for!
A dear friend told me that I do have a happy virus and spread it all around me
Awwww.. that was really the sweetest thing anyone have ever told me ♥
Haha I seriously hope so but yeah... probably am gifted not to sulk and sink with the pain am feeling for that long
I wish people around me will be more kinder and really sincere being with another
Honesty is the most expensive thing that I could ask for in this life
Let us see where the juicy boat will find it's permanent destination shall we....
Wish me all the luck and happiness as am wishing for you too
Much ♥

090609 ~_~

It is a nice date innit
Can happen only once
Too bad nothing special for me on this date
Picking up the pieces and still having that thick clot somewhere
Been meeting new faces and thankfully kind ones
Yeah as always I need awesome vibes around me to brave each day
I miss my mom ♥ I know she's somewhere really peaceful
She need the deserve break and mine will be soon
We don't stop communicating w each other and I know she'll pray for my happiness
Yeah.. syurga di bawah tapak kaki ibu... I always count her blessings
God just keep me grounded and make me strong!
I ♥ you!

Thrashed and *trying hard* boucing back!

I've been on a long hiatus innit!
Too many testing takes place one after another *sighs*
But I take it as a wake up call...

♠ 27th April 2009 ♠ was a black day
Yup the nite when I blacked out as if I received news that my mom leaving this world
My big fat notty cat woke me up to reality and I was trembled and shaken
I could not believe what I read, and I wish it didn't happen
But what happened cannot be undone and it is by own choice

There were ample time for giving up and come out clean
Guess die die also it will be buried w him
There was a pre-b/up on the day we were supposed to escape and spend quality time
♠ 1st May 2009 ♠ is the day that I talked over and over for 4 hours plus over 12 sticks countless glasses of lemonades and ice waters
I still couldnt get the answer... Instead red face and tears
Why it has to be ruined this way and I just cannot comprehend
Walking back to my car and hoping I could get some answers
Instead he just let me go...

Almost 24 hrs I couldn't contained all the mix emotions struggling and fighting in me
HOW COULD IT HAPPENED?
WHY? OH WHY? OH WHY?
Why it has to be messed up this way
I buzz and agreed to meet the same spot I wasted my breath
But this time w ammo I have been keeping with
Damn it wasn't easy to control my anger? or was it shock? sad and depressed at the same time?
I read out loud trembling and punched his left check with my right fist
Then I know what amok is!
You just couldn't contained your anger hence your body moves faster than your brain

It was a wake up call for me
To do something that I should and leave what I shouldn't
Yeah it opens up my eyes
Let Him write the journey for me and deep down am sure He knows what is best
Only I have to pick up the signs and be wiser!
Insya allah

Sloppy Weekend

My body finally surrender to the flu and fever
Yup, I just need to stay in and rest
Also being stress out doesn't help me to fight it over
*sighs*
Quite bad experience lah but that is life
It got to me thinking in the la la land
Until I become really paranoid (lately)
I gotta stay positive and things happen for a reason innit
At this moment I think I might have some withdrawal symptoms
Just gimme a moment...probably it's best that I should be alone for sometime
See you soon...

Spoiltbrat Nuisance

OMG!
I seriously can't wait to leave the stupid infested place man
LB has been annoyingly pest
So penghak! Hope I got that right cos seriously am biting the bullet everyday now
Patience.. god just looooooooove to test me this way
I have a dream...
Everybody does so I am not letting the pig to get in my way
Sometimes I DO BELIVE that MONEY can't really BUY HAPPINESS!
It's PROVEN all the time in my juicy face I tell ya!
Be grateful of what you have now... -_________-
Simplicity is the best!

Life Is Short So Let's Make It To Juicy Fullest

I feel that the *cough* older I get the more I analyze things and people
Before I used to lead my life riding on a crazy bus don't know where it will it ends or stop along the way
Just go! go! go!
The more I analyze the less fun it will be but through experience it's better I think before I act
Yeah, been on a rough ride cos I never analyze anyone or anything but somehow it leads me to where I am now
Which is good cos I would be able to tackle come what may

There are more serious stuff I have to take care now
Cos life is indeed really short
There are too many deaths I heard lately
I just hope I would be able to to live up some of my dreams before I bid bye bye to this cruel world
Why do I say cruel?
Cos there are no more good values in each of everyone I've met (lately)
Probably am at the wrong spot at the moment but it is disgustingly pity to see each of them wearing masks everyday with their foul mouth
Ugh! I just take it as a life test god knows what I've done in past life to endure this predicament at the mo
The other day I asked Afzee to read papers well you know to just keep abreast on current issues
He replied "Why should I read if the front page always about war, politics, robbery, rape.. nothing positive!"
Then I realized yeah it's the same old story and I used to be so eager to read it during younger days (cos my dad cultivates that habit in us) but now all I can say is GREED TOOK OVER THE WORLD!
*sighs*
If you don't fight you'll never stay afloat (survivor)
If I can make one wish is that everyone can be HAPPY for another
Regardless they have bigger house, posh cars, better career, nicer shoes, loving partner and other things
Cos if you can instill that word HAPPY in your life and be grateful what you have I think the world (or where you're living now) can be a better place perhaps a road to heaven!
So be happy always!
Peace and love.
xoxo

Nursing my juicy soul with strawberry milkshake from all annoying ticks around.. gah!

Trying very hard to ignore all the nuisance
Should I go to the event later by myself to make me happy?
After all I know the organizer and mingle is good for my system
Yes I've been abandoning a lot of invites, calls, emails and smses
Ugh! What have I got myself into????????

I still haven't found the right juicy page layout hence let us just stick to this stretched minima with a hint of pink and other happy colors around

I have tonnes of nice memories captured over the weekend
To make up the dire need of a proper holiday
Just me me me and me (and bambam too)
Found a very far indeed but worth the time a beautiful park by the lake to tell bro to skate
Which maybe if I have money and time and join him
My body need to be tortured a lil to have the old of its juicy shape *sighs*

This coming Saturday will be a global effort for Earth Hour to achieve it's goal of targeting 1 bil people
Switching of their lights for an hour as part of their global vote
You may have seen the ads on telly where our local celebs and socialites supporting the call
To find out what each of your country is contributing to it *click me now*
During our time here at 8.30 pm Saturday I will be attending a wedding dinner
Am sure they were not aware of this but I wonder will I be having my nasi minyak in the dark?
Hee hee we shall see....


Oh today is a boring day at work
I can't even think of what to eat for lunch
Receives a cmmt from LB about someone complaints on claims I've submitted for her
Doh! Am a new staff la ngok can just tell me what I've missed to support it
No need to make an issue or unwanted drama about it
So so bodoh!
After all as a new "family" I was never been brief about ANY process and procedures!
Not discriminating but I found that over life experience, fat (large) people can be so over sensitive and craving for drama
Ok I don't wanna be one so I better torture myself soon! Bah!

On another annoying person whom I thank god I have washed both my juicy hands over her
I realized that she still can't get over me (who does hahaha) *ego trip*
When you're carrying a baby I think one should watch their mouth and act
You may have been living your dreams of migrating (but too bad it doesn't sound all rosy and peachy when you have to cover yourself all the time cos you're such a show off like me)
Cos you never know if he/she will turn into something or someone that you hated most! LOL!
After all my dear, your current husband was kinda a bunch of guys that I've discarded
Yes, am so choosy and picky and a fool not to just jump into any man (like you even if it's paid) yo!
Like how you're allergic to me now I was like that to him back then when you was not even in the picture
May you have an easy labour!

Whisked away to an island last weekend and back to dormant life! *sulks*

There Was A Blinking Star Outside My Balcony

Make A Wish!
While watching a mental movie shown on Astro I couldn't help noticing a blinking lights up in the sky
Told bambam isn't it the satellite cos I always got fooled by it
He was like satellite would be really bright but not blinking
And I was like YAY! Finally I saw a pretty star and he moves towards the balcony he said there's more up there, COME!
*beaming delightedly*

Wanted to transfer picchas but oh so so lazy so I'll upload here later la ya
I'm still quite shaken from those zombies in the show like I couldn't imagine if suddenly our town wiped out just like that, losing your loved ones... and leaving you all alone in a stinking town full of dead bodies
Like that show I Am Legend like wth!
*emo due to hormonal imbalance*
Anyway I've packed my smart trolley bag with stuff for 3 days
Yup I'll be away taking my dear parents to that duty free island for some short getaway
Too bad my luvlies couldn't join me (cos I have a room for myself) as it was seriously a last min thingy
But yeah I FREAKING DESERVE a good break even though I know I just can't be myself there due to bla bla bla bla

LB has safely landed in that +1 time zone country (I think it's about 6 degrees now)
I had to fax the hotel voucher since she misplaced it....DOH!!!!!
I do realized it's like me taking care of a big baby man but yet nothing I do is actually appreciated *sighs*
Hello beach and the sea... oh yes come to juicy moi!!!!!

Might packed my lil vaio along cos I think I'll be dead bored nanti.. haha

Broken Chain Link Buckle

I just wore my patent flats with chain buckle twice
.. and it broke again doh!
Cos the cobbler said there were no elastic bands to support while I walk in it
Bah!

LB was not impressed that I didn't turn up last Saturday
HELLO! I'm not a robot and not falling sick *hic*
Truthfully the culprit of me being unwell was the result of few crazy shots
I don't see the importance of me being at the function also being a representative at someone (I don't know) wedding!
So she is on silent mode now... BAH!

Went for some grocery shopping with Afzee earlier (yeah gonna reserved bambam for myself from now on cos it's funny to hear somebody else calling him that and it is my pet name for him)
It was drizzling and found what we needed at SS2 pasar malam
I love going to night market cos you'll find great food and tit bits
We're still recovering and recharging from the weekend
Here are some random picchas I should have uploaded earlier

Crash and Burn

Once I jumped in that dark blue tiles pool I couldn't help but to just swim and swim and swim till I lost count how many laps it were
To a point two of the guys inside stay on the side and left after I stopped haha
The weather is super hot and feeling so dehydrated, dipping in the pool at nite is awesome ~ simple pleasures
An arab looking gal asked if I can show her how I swam so I told her the one close one open sync as a key of rule
I think I seriously gotta charge for lessons haha
Felt lighter and relieved from the tense at work

Claimed my rebate from renewing the car road tax oh dear there goes the moolah outta ze red patent purse of mine
It helps to pay other debt but it seems that a lot of other things to pay like changing the wear and tear of my chevy
Brought bambam to NZX and as predicted he is a happy chap
We had snacks at the cute Fullhouse Cafe and loving my honey aloe vera drinks in a mini jug

Anyway my body still sore and getting back to its usual rhythm
Those silly emm twats not going to spoil my resting day
Yeah I pushed myself to work smart(er) now and be the selfish bitch cos pleasing everyone is not a paid off duty man... grrrrr...
Whatever... had some quality time with bambam
He might be selling the bugsy beetle he has now cos I know deep down he's eyeing on that yellow one lah
Told him to prioritize our expenses hmmmm...
So much things to pay argh! Tired lah!
LB is plotting a secret rendezvous with her lover
If it's away from this lil country tak nak pulak bring me as a lamp post??! Mmpft...